FUCK TITLES.

So my intention was to try to blog every day, and apparently that has not happened. I have not even gotten the chance to write once since I posted my Starter Post. I have been having problems with internet connection. So unfortunately, even though I have wanted to write some posts, I have not been able to. A lot has been going on in my life. I guess you would say that I just have been having a lot of battles within myself lately. It's mainly the little things that cause me to worry or overreact, or things that I should not even be thinking about. I know everyone strives to find true happiness, but what is happiness really? No one is ever really happy with their life, because we as humans will never be fully satisfied with how things are going. You could have everything you have ever wanted, and although it may keep you happy for a good amount of time, after awhile you will always find something that could be better. That is something that has really bothered me lately. People continuously tell me that I'm not happy or I should be doing things differently. And, although some of the things that they tell me may be true, should you really listen to what other people tell you when you are the one that should know what is best for yourself? No, you should not. You can listen to their opinion, just actually letting them impact the decisions you make and the way you live your life is just conformity. I may not be the perfect person to be talking about conformity, considering that I used to live my life on the judgement and reactions of everyone's opinion of me. I guess I just came to realize that everyone is going to judge and there are always those people that will criticize you, and if you let them impact the way you live your life, your never going to be complete. There are always gonna be people's standards that you will not meet, or ever come close to. It is just in your best interest to not let what people say bother you or change you. You will never be content in life if you are always changing to meet other people's standards. You have to learn to ignore the bad things people say, and focus on you and be the best that you can be. If you do not live for yourself, who is? No one else can control your life unless you let them. I seem to have a hard time gripping that concept. It's like I know that it is true, and I understand it, I am just easily manipulated. It's like when something is happening right in front of you, and you see how bad it really is when you take a step back...yet fall back into the same daily routine because it is habit. I have been doing a lot of reading on behavior analysis lately, because it interest me how some people's minds work. I am thinking about trying to pursue some career in psychology, because it fascinates me. Today was not a very long or personal rant of randomness, which I was expecting it to be. I will most likely try to post again either later today or tomorrow. <3